If it ain't you baby

how much i wish i would not care you so much,

at least i wont feel so down rite now.

guess why? remember that you asked me few days ago,

a question which i don't wish to answer anymore.

i hate the fake hope, yes, i do really damn hate it!

once i said i will hold it tight meant that i'll never let you go,

yet, once i decided to go away, i'll never give anyone a second chance to hurt me.

this is the way how i choose to protect myself from being hurt again.

hold it tight? a question that i could never find out the answer.

why? i'm so scare about the promises. it's just disappointed me once and once again.

no matter the answer is yes or not, i won't be happy.

i'm scare to hold it, yet i dun wish to lost it.

perhaps, i am just need a big courage to get over it.

still remember the response that you gave to me when i said i'm emo again bcz of this matter,

seriously, it had make me feel so down and disappointed.

again, i can feel the irresponsible on you. i know you need the freedom,

i know, you never like someone to control on you.

that's why, i never try to break this limit, as i know i'm not able to do this.

i was so failed. i choose to smile with you, iam fake enough.

i choose to hide my sadness, i cannot heal it well.

you will never know how cruel it is when i know i cnt fix it.

how much i wish i can fix it well, how much i wish i can make you n me smile,

how much i wish i can feel your happiness and sadness,

i felt so sad when i saw you down.

my mind keep blank when you said you are the one who did so wrong.

you said sorry, but i don't want any apologize.

you are not sorry at all.

you said you care, but idk what you actually care for?

idk what response i should give when i heard you said you are actually care it so much. i just feel so funny, really.

your way to show your care, i cnt really feel it.

so, i choose the most easy way, i keep ignoring everything.

as long as you are happy with what you did, then keep on.

B asked me, are you coming to penang to work?

idk. i wish to leave penang, i do really dun like to stay at peneng anymore.

B will going to kl next month, i will definitely bored die that time.

again, i have to think bout it. what way i choose to stay? idk.

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby

Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you.